Thursday, August 21, 2014

It's a....



While I realize I never wrote the second installment about cloth diapering, I have something much more exciting to write about. At this point, the sex of our baby is probably old news, but it is very exciting to me! To preface, I should mention that I really wanted a girl this time around. We are planning for only two children, and I would love to have the experience of a mommy-daughter relationship. I do love having a boy though, so I wasn't necessarily set on either gender.

At the ultrasound, the tech was doing some of the more "boring" measurements of the baby since TJ was late getting there, and as she was measuring something and was zoomed out, I saw it. The thing. The determining factor. I didn't say anything, though, because I thought maybe, just maybe, I was wrong. But a few minutes later when TJ got there, the tech gave the verdict: it's a boy. Yep, I knew I saw a thing!

I felt a hint of disappointment, but it was, as always, a beautiful thing to see the baby that you are growing in your body on a screen. This child that you love but you don't know yet moving around. We even saw him rub his eyes and yawn! My love grew for him that day. And even though he is not a girl, I love knowing more about who he is. HE is the child God has gifted and entrusted to me. There are some things I may "miss out on" by not having a daughter, but there is something beautiful about picturing all the things we will experience raising two boys.

We found out the gender of the baby on a Tuesday, and we were having a gender reveal party with our friends on Friday, so I had to keep my big mouth shut for a few days. Luckily, I was able to get my energy out by telling family and some friends who don't live in the area. The party was a fun time (even though I forgot to serve dessert), and we did a dance to a Justin Bieber song, and then I lifted my shirt (halfway) to reveal a blue heart on my stomach. Most people had guessed it was a girl (probably because they knew that's what I was hoping for).

Anyway, I had picked a name for him, and TJ wasn't quite sure about it. But it grew him on, so we "tried it out" by calling the baby this name for a while, and it just feels right to me. So he has a name that I am in love with. :-) I am not publicizing the name, but some people know what it is. We just aren't publicizing it. Facebook has made it seem like everything is everyone's business, but I prefer to keep some things just for us.

Is Blake excited about having a baby brother? He will be, someday. For now he doesn't quite understand. He used to point to my belly when I asked where is the baby. But when I ask where is your baby brother, or where is baby _____, he doesn't respond. We're working on it.

I am excited to be the mother of two adorable and crazy boys. Our family is truly blessed, and I pray that this sweet boy would continue to grow stronger and healthier every day! And come before the end of the year... just kidding. But seriously.